The heavy pounding and the vigorous knocking at the back of your skull. The throbbing of the blood pumping life through your veins. The hot flushes that pulsate through your body.  They all allow you to escape the troubles for a while. The sweet, smooth taste that rolls past the back of your tongue puts your mind at ease, lets you see past all the bullshit and allows your mind, body and soul to escape to another place. I've always wondered what pleasure others found in it, and now I know. Taking away the  mental pain in exchange for physical pain. But even then, I don't feel satisfied. So tell me, what's the point? 

Friendships & Frienshits, Relationships & Relationshits

"As the end of another holiday draws near, I'd like to take a moment to list all the things I'm thankful for. I'm thankful that no matter how dark things might get, old friendships can still be rekindled. I'm thankful for new relationships that help us realize how far we've come from who we are. And how close we get when we can really be ourselves. I'm thankful that no matter what they say, you can go home again. Whether it's your home or not. But the thing I'm most thankful for? How even on the most giving of days, people can still do something unforgivable." 

Dreams

"Dreams. Everybody has them. Some good. Some bad. Some you wish you could forget. Sometimes you realize you've outgrown them. Sometimes you feel like they're finally coming true. And some of us just have nightmares. But no matter what you the dream, when morning comes, reality intrudes and the dream begins to slip away."

"If there's one thing I've learned, it's that there would be no gossip without secrets. You might be brave enough to reveal your secret only to have it used against you. Or someone else's secret might effect you in unexpected ways. There are some secrets you're only too happy to keep. Others surface only to be buried away deeper than they were before. But the most powerful secrets are the truths you thought you could never reveal. That once spoken change everything."

The Truth

"It's often said that, no matter the truth, people see what they want to see. Some people might take a step back and find out they were looking at the same big picture all along. Some people might see that their lies have almost caught up to them. Some people may see what was there all along. And then there are those other people. The ones that run as far as they can so they don't have to look at themselves."

Needless To Say

Why is it that when I feel that my life is going great, 

& everything is flowing smoothly...

Everything always shits on me at once.

Everyone seems to abandon me.

I just feel so miserable and alone. 

I get it at school, at training, at home.

I most certainly don't need it from you.

FUCK OFF.