This doesn't make me feel better,
It kills me inside, feeling like this,
But hurting feels better than feeling nothing.
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The pain is like a cure to that burning fury you feel inside you,
And those cuts, bruises, scrapes and scars;
Are the memories of how much you suffered - Reminding you no.
But you remember how good it felt, so you do it again.
The feeling inside me is something that only I can wash away,
But. I. Can't.
Nobody understands. Nobody cares. Nobody knows.