Wednesday, 25 August 2010

This post was so pathetic, I couldn't even come up with a title.



This doesn't make me feel better,

It kills me inside, feeling like this,
But hurting feels better than feeling nothing.

~


The pain is like a cure to that burning fury you feel inside you,
And those cuts, bruises, scrapes and scars;
Are the memories of how much you suffered - Reminding you no.
But you remember how good it felt, so you do it again.

The feeling inside me is something that only I can wash away,
But. I. Can't.

Nobody understands. Nobody cares. Nobody knows.



6 smile(s):

m said...

wow.
i feel exactly how you feel.
and believe me.
somebody understands, somebody care, somebody knows.

x

tywo said...

I care.
I wish I could give you a hug right now.
I felt this way a couple of days ago. I'm better now.
I hope you feel better soon.






LOVE!

Teresauras said...

Holy cow! I can't believe I waited this long to check out blogs...sometimes it does hurt and it IS tough either way. Cry if you have to to make it through, 'cause YOU WILL make it anywho!!!

Camelgirl said...

'It kills me inside, feeling like this,
But hurting feels better than feeling nothing.'
So true. And you are so amazing, and this isn't pathetic, and at least you can feel right? Which means you'll feel in a good way again.
xx

Sam said...

Today in church our Monseigneur read this to us. Really being beautiful is up to you. You honestly are the only person who can dictate how beautiful you are. If you feel beautiful and truly believe you are beautiful others will believe you are beautiful too, I used to think I was so ugly for the longest time.... I still do have problems with the way I look, but I eventually decided that no matter what happens it will never be perfect, it is human nature to want more when really what you have is all you need. I do feel beautiful, despite the fact that I am slightly breaking out and that I do think I have a rather big nose... I would love to tell you that you are beautiful but I have no clue what you look like. So yes only in your opinion it is the truth but to plenty of others it is far from the truth,
Ageless woman....
Age 3:
She looks at herself and sees a Queen.

Age 8:
She looks at herself and sees Cinderella.

Age 15:
She looks at herself and sees an Ugly Sister (Mom, I can't go to school looking like this!)

Age 20:
She looks at herself and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly" ... but decides she's going out anyway.

Age 30:
She looks at herself and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly" ... but decides she doesn't have time to fix it so she's going out anyway.

Age 40:
She looks at herself and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly" but says, "At least, I am clean" and she goes out anyway.

Age 50:
She looks at herself and sees "I am" and goes wherever she wants to go.

Age 60:
She looks at herself and reminds herself of all the people who can't even see themselves in the mirror anymore. Goes out and conquers the world.

Age 70:
She looks at herself & sees wisdom, laughter and ability, goes out and enjoys life.

Age 80:
Doesn't bother to look. Just puts on a purple hat and goes out to have fun with the world.

FIND YOUR PURPLE HAT ASAP!!!!!!!!

Cheryl said...

Awww... that was really beautifuly written. I'm sorry though, *hugs* I hope things are getting better for you. I went through something similar to this two weeks ago... :( I'll be praying for you dear.

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